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| It seems like I'm getting to watch my life spiral down in a semi-constant stream of bad stuff happening to me...
Last week was vacation, big deal... I didn't manage to get any of the homework I wanted to get done even started, I still have no job, I'm failing most of my classes in school, my car was in the shop two weeks ago to fix a problem it was having where something came loose and was rattling, on Friday night the break light on my dash came on and so I dropped it off today, just paid $100 to pick it up.. breaks are fine, the light is on because it's tied into the daylight sensor and apparently that needs to be replaced.. as well as my exhaust is leaking, so they estimate that's going to cost $2400, and my car won't pass inspection without that fixed.. Luckily I have until October till I need to get it inspected again. As I mentioned before, last week was vacation, but I didn't mention that I was also kicked out of my house for 4 days by my parents for bringing Melissa by my room for 30 minutes well I was fixing her phone, I needed my computer to do it, and I needed her along to enter her credentials a few times through the process.
At this point, I'm seriously considering trying to drop out of school and just try to work somewhere.. even the subway I tried to apply to is no longer hiring though, and if I drop out of school, in 6 months time, I'll be slammed with like $40k in debt from loans. If I continue with school, I will probably have to get at least another 20k in loans, plus at this rate I may have to stay an extra semester or two, not to mention school wants me to find a job before they'll let me graduate...
In addition to all this, I still owe Dwayne $100, The Isles Larp $80, and my parents are threatening to kick me out permanently. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| | Subject: | [LJ2ME] Stress | | Time: | 06:57 pm |
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| | I'm writing this in hopes to get some suggestions on how to deal with stress. I'm not really 100% sure what is causing this stress but I know it's causing problems. Elizabeth, the comment you made this weekend about how stressed I looked? I'm pretty sure a good deal of that was not in game (though some of it was). It was intresting what you told me about burning out, Dwayne, because I feel like I'm close to doing that in real life. One of the ways my stress seems to manifest itself is as tight muscles in my neck and back. I've lived with a stiff neck (and there by lots of pain) for as long as I can remember, but I think it may have been stress related back pain that was ailing me on sat. I'm not saying I want an easy quick fix like a painkiller or something for the tenseness, but I would like some help. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So today was officially day 3 of the 2009 FIRST robotics build season, and I feel only more anxious than before... We got the kit Sat, and the team decided they wanted to take sunday off... I think that's a dumb idea, but ok.. whatever.. their team... so today they were meeting again, great! We can work on the design, and maybe test the control board like it suggested, right? That's what I though, anyways...
I specifically asked Jon (one of the other mentors.. the main mechanical one...) not to touch the control system. I had a specific method I wanted to use, and I had the manual that explained exactly how it needed to be done to test it out and make sure it works properly.
Firstly, Jon didn't listen to me, when I got there he was half way through the wiring of the system, and the entire area was a complete mess... so after explaining to him a few times that I wanted to do it to make sure it was done a certain way, I cleaned up the area and sat back, figuring he started, might as well let him finish. So he took forever to finish, stopping a number of times to do things that really didn't need to be done, such as dismantling the enable/disable adapter, rotating the switch, and then putting it all back together.
After all the control system was assembled, we tried to test it, and... it didn't work.. after much more time than it should have taken to fix it, Jon admitted that he didn't actually read the manual on how to set it up, and I had to go through every piece step by step, but taking longer than it would have taken to do the initial setup, I found the reason it didn't work is one cord was plugged into hole 2, when it should have been plugged into hole 1.
As another note.. In the competition manual, it says we have 3 days from the day we received the kit to send FIRST a list of parts missing or defective... Well again, we got the kit Sat... we did inventory on sat found some parts missing, but then we didn't meet Sunday.. When I told Mike (the primary contact person who should be talking to FIRST) about that.. he was surprised, and I told him he needs to email first today if we are going to get the missing parts (I still don't know if he did such)
And finally... Many of the students want to meet more often, but Mike it limiting us, and Jon is agreeing going "Oh, well we'll do fine only meeting 2-3 times a week." We have 6 weeks TOTAL to design, build, and program this robot from scratch... their next scheduled time in next sat... the beginning of week 2, so far we have NO design, just a "We think we want an offensive robot." I'm really concerned about the group and I'm trying to get things done so we're not scrambling and finish up at the last possible moment..
I'm trying to get this going, trying to get the team together and meeting and building the bot, but I feel like I'm the only mentor who actually wants to A) go the distance and B) do things right...
Oh, and everyone(including me :( ) forgot to wear safety glasses when we were working on the robot... major safety violation... Jon told me later that he remembered, but purposely didn't say anything, because there were locked up...
I'm really hoping I can convince Mike to allow the teams to meet more days, but I'm not really expecting such to happen...
I think that's all for now...time for bed. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| Parents suck... I had an awsome weekend and it was very fun, got back really late last night and the ended having me do some chores, ok, fine.. I was tired and it was about midnight though, so I didn't empty out my car, planning on doing it today. So anyways, my father mentioned he needed me to come home as soon as I could today because we "needed to talk." So I left school as soon as it got out, instead of staying around for the study session which I really could use. I also woke up late because I was so tired, missing my first class, my father made me miss my second class by making me stop getting ready and do stuff for him before I could leave, when I told him I was going to be late and probably miss my class, he said "Not my problem." So anyways, I missed the study session with the teacher I wanted to go to and came back, he had me go straight to the office, which was fine, but the entire purpose I was there for was to check the packing list against 2 boxes he had, send a fax, and take out the trash... no 'talking' at all.. They did argue back and forth a bit though, and any time I did anything, they made some side comment, making me feel bad...
So now I'm sitting at home, watching Firefly.. going to eat soon. yea... that's all... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Had an intresting dream last night that I think a few of my friends would think kinda neat...
Twas a larp, but not one we went to before, though it was based on Accelerant and for some reason we had the same names for our characters. 'Starn's' and 'JD's' cabins were attacked and so we went up to check them out.. JD's cabin was fine and so I myself went to check how the group that went to Starn's cabin was. The attackers came in after I did and tried to threated us. I was near one of them and they tried to death strike me by touching me with their foot and I clarified them to say it had to be with a weapon and the person had to be unable to stop it.. The guy had a gun tucked into the front of his pants and was like "Oh, ok." so I grabbed the gun, took a step back, shot him for six and he went down.. Then I death striked him and was surprised when none of the rest of his party tried to interrupt me.. so at the end their group said something like "We have suffered for the wrongs we have done here, we will leave now." It was kinda neat...
And they made traps for JD's cabin, too... :P | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I am now sitting at home, on my couch, watching Dr. Who and resting after my larp weekend... It was awsome.
The weekend flew by, and there was so much more I wanted to do, but we did so much that there was no time to do it in! Normally when I've gotten this feeling from Larp, it was because we had large periods of downtime in which we could have been doing something, but not this time...
I got to do stuff with the old tech gate, we were able to succeed in a major research project I headed up and we were able to successfully carry out the plan, spiking the levels of the world, we went mineing and saved a spirit, we hunted/NPC shifted, got a really cool effect or two, and we had really important people from the empire come through to our world and (maybe) have now had the gate opened two way | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| So two days to my birthday and I'm feeling like crap still... I've consistently missed my first two classes every day for the past 2 weeks and it finals are just around the corner... I know one of the classes I missed was a test, still need to talk to my professors to see if I can somehow salvage my school.. I hate my job, having trouble finding something better, parents are demanding I pay rent now and they want half my tax return... Although I hope my birthday this year is better than last year, I'm not expecting it to be... That's all for now I guess.
I apologize, I'm not trying to be moapy, I'm just having a hard time pulling out of this downward spiral | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Parents | | Time: | 11:25 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/angry.gif) pissed off |
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| | I'm pissed off at my parents again, Last night I made a special stop at the office to make sure their banking was in order since they are currently out of town, and I said I was going to try and stop by the bank today to make a deposit for them, and I also wanted to make one for myself. Well I was running late today and forgot my work shirt at home, so I drove home before work to grab it and ended up making it to work 5 minutes late, I didn't have time to stop by the bank for any deposit. They just called me up a few minutes ago and first complained that I didn't think to stop by the office on my way home to check the mail for them, and they they bitched that I didn't get the banking done. Fuck them! I didn't have time! I'm sick of this shit they are always pulling. And oh He doesn't want to hear 'that' tone with me when I get pissed off, well too god damn bad! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| It sucks..
That is all..
On the upside, went to a first regional.. it was fun.. but now lonely.. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | So Melissa, my girlfriend, has been living with me the past couple of days, but tomorrow she's moving out to live with another friend for two weeks before moving into an apartment, wheither she's going to be by herself of if I'm moving in with her is still up for debate as I'm not sure how well I'll be able to help financially to her apartment situation.. I'm really bad with managing money. In addition, I was told by my dad today that I had to find some place for my cat to live as he was going to get rid of all three, apparently my mother yelled at him for not doing anything about the cats tonight, so he's decided he's going to do something by getting rid of them.. It really hurts.. Also, there was shouting back and forth and they're talking about maybe going their separate ways... and my schooling starts Monday... I don't know what to do now and I'm just all out of sorts..... In semi-older news... I treated myself a little and bought a new video card for my computer, but as I was installing the driver I managed to completely corrupt the OS and ended up doing an accidental drive format. I was able to recover most of the stuff I needed but it still sucked.... My computer needed to be reformatted anyways I guess, glad my music is on a separate drive.... Yea... that's all for now.... :( | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I just woke up with a bit of an anxiety attack-ish kinda dream... Anxious to go back to Isles! ^^; In the dream it was the night before/day of and I was doing all my last minute packing everything up kinda thing. :P Kinda makes me want to pack now... ^^;;
I wish I knew the new dates and such.... *bounce* It's so much fun and lets me hang out with my friends.. ahh well... soon I hope I'll have more info... | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Ever get that feeling that you're losing touch with things? Yea.. that's about where I am right now, I'm feeling like I'm losing touch with both my friends, and myself... I've also been losing contact with a bunch of my friends lately and it's making me rather sad... The other day I went up and visited Todd, and that was great, but I still feel like I'm losing contact with people I care about.... Disconnected... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | How will I die? Your Result: You will die while saving someone's life. The most noble of all deaths. Your rewards will be great in the next life. You are most definitely a humanitarian. If not currently, you will be. To give one's life is a precious moment that will be remembered by friends and family for many decades. | | You will die in a nuclear holocaust. | | | You will die in a car accident. | | | You will die of boredom. | | | You will be murdered. | | | You will die from a terminal illness. | | | You will die while having sex. | | | You will die in your sleep. | | How will I die?
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| | Happy new year to everyone, hope you all had a wonderful holiday season, and I hope that you all have an awesome new year! ^^ | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Soo.. Ummm.. Yea.. Small update.
There's a girl at work who I think I'm developing a small crush on.. but I have NO clue how to go about it... No social experiences for me.. :/ | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| So... I said I'd post details later.. this is kinda sorta later..
So I was mulling over what to do until I picked up my parents at the airport, kinda unhappy that the planned thanksgiving dinner was a TV dinner... so as I woke up, I got a call from Elizabeth, and she invited me to come up to her parent's house for food! ^^ Thanks again Elizabeth, I loved it. It was far better than the 'dinner' I had with my parents later on.
I love my friends, they're awesome.
As a side note, I got my new phone, the LG Voyager.. it's pretty.... Imaging the offspring from iPhone-LG enV sex... yea.. That's the LG Voyager. It's really nice so far. http://gizmodo.com/gadgets/cellphones/verizons-lg-vx10000-voyager-revealed-and-groped-with-gallery-306428.php | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | My friends are awesome. Details to follow later. ^^ | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I kept meaning to post an entry here, it's been like forever...
So I'm no longer working at Shaws, which is good cause I hated it.. Now I'm working at Walmart as a sales associate (currently in the toys section, but hopefully I'll be moved to electronics soon...
This weekend I was at Isles, it was AWESOME! ^^ Friday night I was betrayed by someone who we were truced with and he stole one of my characters foci, then I got to visit death, but only for a little because I had a snowflake thanks to Winter. ^^ The rest of Friday night was rather uneventful until Kitten ran off into the woods, freaked out.. So I went after her, blew up at my commanding officers, and various other things happened, good times were had by all it seems. Saturday was pretty good, don't remember everything we did.. Umm.. lessie... we went to mine to get rid of all the spiders in it and hmm... lessie... not too much else seemed to happen... later on we had to fight against this really powerful guy who made everyone go insane, except me! It was awsome! I got to feel like a big strong thug because all the people were going insane all around me and I was throwing them all into the healers, then kicking the butt of whatever made them go insane. It was really cool. ^^ Even got to fight the Mardrum himself! Sunday we went and cleared out a spider nest to try and keep them from comming back, it was really really cool.. Definately worth the experience, can't wait to go back.
I'm sure I forgot some stuff...
Thanksgiving doesn't seem like it'll be too good... TV dinners for thanksgiving dinner... :/ Ahh well... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Well.. on my way into Shaws today, I got a call from walmart.. they want me to have orientation saturday and tuesday. Have to attend both.. Problem is I told them I can't do this sat or any of next weekend.. they ignored me... So I need to call them tomorrow and wait for next orientation, which is scheduled for "I don't know when."
On another note.. Randomly, the apple store in Peabody called my cell phone today about my resume on Monster.com and offered me a job. Interview tomorrow! ^^ Hope I get hired there and at a good pay... | | comments: Leave a comment |
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